The real me- get to know me
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The real me
Get to know me
Hey bloggers and readers,
My name is Jayelan. I have autism. I can’t talk much but I spell things out on a letter board. I am easily judged by society, I can’t begin to explain how sad I am when people laugh at me. Really though, I feel no one understands. Because of my autism I get stared at and pointed at. I get frustrated when people assume I’m dumb, because I’m not dumb at all. I feel like I am treated terribly by students at my school, excluding a selected few.
Another feeling I get is worthlessness. I never really feel happy much unless I’m bike riding. I wear my sneakers and off I go. I bike ride down to the jetty and back. I like bike riding because it helps me to escape. It is the only thing that tells me everything will be okay, it is the only thing that makes me feel normal. I feel terrible unless I go for a bike ride. I’m not familiar with regular exercise much, as my muscles aren’t as strong as everybody else’s.
My goal for this blog is for my audience to be made aware of autism and how challenging it is to live with. My journey has been hard and I hope to help others by sharing it.
No one can really know what it’s like to be me, but through this blog I will show you.
The real me
Get to know me
Hey bloggers and readers,
My name is Jayelan. I have autism. I can’t talk much but I spell things out on a letter board. I am easily judged by society, I can’t begin to explain how sad I am when people laugh at me. Really though, I feel no one understands. Because of my autism I get stared at and pointed at. I get frustrated when people assume I’m dumb, because I’m not dumb at all. I feel like I am treated terribly by students at my school, excluding a selected few.
Another feeling I get is worthlessness. I never really feel happy much unless I’m bike riding. I wear my sneakers and off I go. I bike ride down to the jetty and back. I like bike riding because it helps me to escape. It is the only thing that tells me everything will be okay, it is the only thing that makes me feel normal. I feel terrible unless I go for a bike ride. I’m not familiar with regular exercise much, as my muscles aren’t as strong as everybody else’s.
My goal for this blog is for my audience to be made aware of autism and how challenging it is to live with. My journey has been hard and I hope to help others by sharing it.
No one can really know what it’s like to be me, but through this blog I will show you.
Well written Jayelan. Keep up your good work.
ReplyDeleteWell written Jayelan. People often perceive things according to what they see or hear. There are so many people out there who are judged for their disadvantage and laughed at. However, those selfish worldviews shall never be any of your concerns for these people who have such views will one day learn for themselves just how foolish they were to think that way of you. They will one day open their eyes that was blinded by ignorance to see the beauty that lies within you. :D
ReplyDelete"I care very little if I am judged by you or by any human court; indeed, I do not even judge myself." 1 Corinthians 4:3.
Here's a verse for you!
Keep it up brother! If ever there are times when you feel like the world is against you, always remember that you are not alone and there are people who really cares for you! :))
Amen !!
DeleteHi Jayelan, good to hear from you. Can't wait to read more about what you are thinking and doing. I had no idea you like bike riding! I do too, though I don't currently have a bike 😀
ReplyDeleteI'll admit that I do not fully understand what you're going through, so I'm glad you have chosen to put your thoughts in this blog for us. I'll keep reading (and commenting) as long as you keep writing.
Congratulate yourself for starting a blog and sharing news with us. I work with special needs persons espescially those who are Deaf. I have 2 godchildren who are both Deaf , married Deaf spouse too. Like you they also face many challenges and obstacles in the life, married life, employment. However with determination and perserverence they too can suceed. I believe you can overcome any challenges. Continue your good work and sharing thrm in tour blogs..tou will always have a friend in all of us..tou have the avility and confidence to excel...soar the skies...
ReplyDeleteGod speaks through you louder than you can ever imagine. Thank you for stepping out.
ReplyDeleteI am proud of you Jayelan!
ReplyDeletePutting your feeling out there can be a bit scary.
I'm hoping for you it will be a release or a way to free yourself.
I love that you love to ride.
I love riding too! It's so relaxing!
Keep writing! I can't wait to read more about your favourite things.
Love from Mandy
Jayelan, your cycling journey reminded me whenever my life takes a rough turn, I often dwell not only on the current source of my frustration but also challenges I have faced in the past. During one of those difficult times, the lines from a song about how we have to live with our scars came to mind. I thought to myself, I have so many scars already!
ReplyDeleteAt that moment, God reminded me of something I learned in an immunology class. Scar formation is a natural part of the healing process. An injury does not become a scar until the wound has completely healed. If a scar is forming, the wound is healing.
I understood that I could choose to view my scars either as reminders of the hurt I had experienced or as reminders of how God had stepped into situations of brokenness and destruction and set me on the path of healing, igniting hope in a situation of despair.
I can look at my scars and remember either the pain and sorrow or the faithfulness and unchanging love of God who has the power to redeem and renew, transform and restore.
Jayelan, I believe God through His faithfulness and unchanging love will redeem, renew, transform and restore you as continue to write your reflection to encourage many others around you.
Hi Jayelan.
ReplyDeleteFirst, well done on having the courage to write. It's not easy to express your feelings and lay them out for the world to see.
Second, this is an excellent piece of work! I know it must have taken a great deal of perseverance and grit to write quite so much. I really appreciate the structure and clarity of the sentences! I think you write better than many of my fellow university students (just between you and me).
Also, I want to congratulate you for facing difficulty so often in life, but rising above it. It is never easy. I hope to see more of your writing in the future.
In case you ever want any tips on writing, drop me an email or a message okay?😊
Best,
Korkor Kieran
Hi Jayelan.
ReplyDeleteFirst, well done on having the courage to write. It's not easy to express your feelings and lay them out for the world to see.
Second, this is an excellent piece of work! I know it must have taken a great deal of perseverance and grit to write quite so much. I really appreciate the structure and clarity of the sentences! I think you write better than many of my fellow university students (just between you and me).
Also, I want to congratulate you for facing difficulty so often in life, but rising above it. It is never easy. I hope to see more of your writing in the future.
In case you ever want any tips on writing, drop me an email or a message okay?😊
Best,
Korkor Kieran
Hey Jayelan,
ReplyDeleteI think this is a terrific idea. I don't know much about Autism and am looking forward to hearing how life is for you. One of my sons loves Cycling too and the other doesn't . I am very impressed with your expertise with the letter board. Everyone is different and the best way to learn about these differences is if you can tell us about your experiences! Looking forward to reading more!
Keep it up.
Jane xx
Hi Jayelan, So sorry life is very tough for you. I really agree with you that It really isn't fair that other people are so very ignorant. I find this very upsetting and sad as well and it really needs to change in our society. More people need to be aware of others differences and to not make assumptions about someones worth when they really don't know them. I am very glad that you are a such a strong wise person and that you have decided to write this blog I think you have a great deal that you can teach others through writing down of your experiences, your feelings and ideas about what it is like to be you! . How great it is also that you have discovered that riding your bike really helps as well with your mood.
ReplyDeleteI look forward to reading more of your writings.
Kathy xx
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ReplyDeleteAt my teenage year as I previously mentioned in my post to you, I joined a bicycle trip during my holiday, I found straight flat ride manageable, but the hills ride were overwhelming. I hadn’t properly trained for bicycling long ride daily. I was often alone and lagging behind, especially on the steep climbs. When my travel companions stopped for a quick break, they’d watch for my approach and yell, “Keep going, James! Don’t stop!”
ReplyDeleteNow, when I’m faced with a setback or overwhelmed by challenges, I picture God in the role of my long-ago travelling companions. But God is more than a cheerleader. God is my strength and provider. When I pray for God’s help to keep me going, what seems staggering at the moment becomes straightforward and possible.
Reading about the faith of others in Hebrews 11 and recalling God’s words to Paul in today’s reading encourage me: “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Each trial we face is an opportunity for diligence and dedication. We can look beyond the all-consuming task to find in Jesus the strength and encouragement we need to continue. I hope my sharing encourage you Jayelan.